Pour Out Your Heart To Make Way for Truth

Pour Out Your Heart To Make Way for Truth

“Trust in him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge.”—Psalm 62:8

I arise each morning, toss on my fluffy robe, grab a cup of coffee, and head to my “Jesus Chair”, as my friend, Karen, calls it. It’s a pretty chair in my parlor where I meet each morning with God, journal in hand, devotional book, and Bible.

Sleep didn’t come easily last night as I tossed and turned. There’s so much to think about, worry about, figure out: the kids, our ministry, our future, my goals and dreams. I knew Papa and I would have a lot to talk about.

I start with my journal and write, “Dear Papa”. It’s my name for God. It’s a term of endearment which represents security, comfort, unconditional love, and intimacy. Someone taught me long ago the power of keeping a journal and the discipline of getting all the feelings out. It’s something I’ve practiced for over two decades. I start with all the things on my heart and I pour it all out: My honest fears; Papa listens. My temper tantrum; Papa doesn’t mind. My furrowed, angry brow: Papa understands. My pitfall sin and shortcomings; Papa still loves me. My wasted worry and doubt; Papa knows I trust Him.

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King David: A Study on Expressing Honest Feelings

King David: A Study on Expressing Honest Feelings

“I am poured out like water, and all my bones are out of joint. My heart has turned to wax; it has melted within me. My mouth is dried up like potsherd and my tongue sticks to the roof of my mouth; you lay me in the dust of death. Dogs surround me, a pack of villains encircle me; they pierce my hands and my feet. All my bones are on display; people stare and gloat over me. They divide my clothes among them and cast lots for my garment. But you, Lord, do not be far from me. You are my strength; come quickly to help me.” Psalm 22:14-19

I had just spent six weeks on bed rest waiting for our third child’s safe arrival. Church family brought meals and helped with our two preschoolers along with my mom, who lived two hours away. Those six weeks were emotionally exhausting. The probable causes of the preterm labor were dire. We had so many questions; would our baby be healthy? Would we make it full-term? If he came early, what medical issues would we face? Sadly, abortion was offered as an option. I stayed in bed, prayed, and read the Word as each hour I’d count the contractions to make sure I wasn’t having too many. My days were long and the weeks seemed to stretch on forever.

At 37 weeks I got out of bed, did my Target run to get ready for baby, and he arrived the next day — 9 lb 1 oz of complete perfection. Relief and rejoicing flowed freely. It was short-lived as two months later my husband was diagnosed with Chronic Progressive Multiple Sclerosis, and it would become the hardest years of my life.

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A Resolution For Your Heart

A Resolution For Your Heart

“Surely you desire truth in the inner parts, you teach me wisdom in the inmost place.” -Psalm 51:6

It’s the time of year where we all assess where we’re at and look forward to the New Year anticipating personal changes. A fresh start usually inspires us to try some new disciplines. We resolve to eat better, exercise more, get organized, call home more often, work less, worry less, put down our phones to be present, and so on.

Our mind is willing to try new things, but we inevitably find ourselves in mid-February stuck in our old routines. A 2007 study by Richard Wiseman from the University of Bristol involving 3,000 people showed that 88% of those who set New Years Resolutions fail, despite the fact that 52% were confident of success at the beginning.

Why are resolutions so hard? I think it has to do with understanding ourselves. Most of us aren’t self-aware. We don’t understand why we do what we do.

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