She Loves God, But She's A Little Tired.
/e been thinking about this woman a lot. Maybe you know her?
She loves God. She’s walked with Him for many years, but she’s tired. She’s tired of the same old relationship. She keeps trying to work her way to Him by doing all the right things. She’s diligent but utterly frustrated. Deep down she feels empty but doesn’t know what to do.
She Loves God, But He Seems Distant
She loves God, but He seems distant and she can’t figure out why. She’s gone through her mental checklist:
I’m serving Him by giving of my time, gifts, and finances. Check.
I attend church regularly. Check.
I throw up some prayers in the morning. Check
I try to get along with my husband. Check.
I’m raising these kids the best I know-how. Check.
I try to read the Bible. Check.
Yet, after doing all these things for God, she’s not quite connecting with God. She reads her Bible, but there’s no wonder jumping off the pages. She can’t always relate to the stories or understand how they apply to her. She tries to listen for God’s voice, but mostly she hears the lies of condemnation and shame, or she hears nothing at all. This reinforces her lack, which causes her to move farther away from God.
She’s praying about things: deep things, hard things, and yet it feels like her prayers bounce off the ceiling. She’s begged, pleaded, even bargained with God, and still, He doesn’t answer her prayers the way she wants, so she assumes He’s mad at her.
She longs for something deeper and richer but is frustrated with how to get there. The formulas fall flat, the awe of God is gone. She feels alone, isolated, and disappointed in her relationship with God.